Cliff's Life

Yet again

2004-06-02T02:50:55Z

and once again i have returned to livejournal after a long busy hiatus only to post 2x in one day. weird.

i am looking foreward to, and dreading the end of the school year at the same time. im looking forward to the summer alot, because i like solon alot. Us boys had alot of fun over the summer last year, and im really looking forward to it again. this time around, i wont be leaving the house at 1130 or midnight due to the morning job or for any other reason. im really looking forward to spending time in daryls basement shooting it out, and playing other games, and watching movies. im looking forward to having people over to my place for just chatting and hanging out (probobly sometimes under the guise of watching wrestling. im really looking forward to getting to spend sometime just me and daryl again, because i know that between me having Linny, and him having Abby here, its not easy to find time to just chill that way. i know this summer will bring us way close again like we were earlier in the year, tho i regret that things got away from us anyway. i miss the conversations that me daryl and J have when we are just chilling out, and i know the summer will bring us even closer then last summer did. and im sure abby will be along for the ride, chilling with us, and eating with us. welcome back to the pizza schedule :). lol. it will rock to chill with Benri too... missed him alot over the year, and i was sad the dicks and janes couldnt be at the invitational this past weekend.

but im dreading the summer because im gonna be away from lindsay alot. i know that 2 weeks after i get home im going to be on vacation with her for a week, and with her through her surgery on the 6th, til the 8th... but after that, we wont see eachother that much. and i really hate that. ill miss her alot. its a bitch not being able to hold the person you love when you want to, as im sure almost everyone who reads this (including Benri) can relate to. i just know that the end result of all the time apart will be not being apart for more then a couple weeks at a time for quite a while, because we are staying for the summer next year. YAY!

i think that next year is going to have quite the impact on our group dynamic. the ability to be able to close a door when you need some time to yourself will be really good. i know that it will be good for everyone not to have to be on top of eachother all the time. it puts more stress on life when you cant possibly have time to yourself. this in no way means i dont like having everyone around all the time, but i definately have times when i need some peace and quiet, and the apartment will grant us that....and G4Tech TV!!!

i really just cant wait to get into the apartments. the prospect of spending the majority of my time in a residence where the living space and sleeping space are seperated is highly appealing. and having a kitchen is going to rock, because i really like to cook, and i know that i will eat way healthier when i have my own kitchen to work in. its really cool to think about. i feel really mature when i contemplate this thing. ill be in an apartment. with my best friends in the world. and we can say "MY Apartment" i feel like the transition to adult is nearing completion. while we arent actually doing the funding, we are making the payments on all the bills. that apartment will be ours for 2 years. we can do whatever we want. light it how we want... put whatever we want on the walls... we'll have a balcony... we will all be old enough, or aproaching the age, where we can legally drink, or at least have someone legally purchase who lives with us. i really just cant wait. i truly feel like greatness is coming.

i know that i made some mistakes ending a week ago, that lasted for about 3 weeks. i have only regret for those mistakes. but i have made my apologies and am making up for my mistakes, and im moving past them, and i would appreciate if, and im not saying people havnt, everyone would do the same. as i come off of my mistakes, which i am still now, and will continue to be sorry for, i am ready to move on to the next part of my life, in the apartment, with my friends. Viva L'Appartment. The best is waiting to begin!

i have 2 sets of lyrics here. the first set has to do with me, and the second set has to do with someone else, that should figure this out on their own... thats all i have to say about that.

"there was a time when I
had nothing to explain
oh, this mess I have made
but then things got complicated
my innocence has all but faded
oh, this mess I have made "
-Ben Folds (for me)

"I know that you're in there
I can see you
You're saying you're ok
I don't believe you

And now that the gig is off
The spell is broken
The fat lady sung
The president has spoken

These days that you were waiting for
Will come and go
Like any day
Just another day

There's never gonna be a moment of truth for you
While the world is watching
All you need is the thing you forgotten
And that's to learn to live with what you are

So freak out if you wanna
And I’ll still be here
Don’t call me for years and when you do
Yeah, I’ll still be here

I’m not saying the effort is a waste of time - but I
Just love you for the things you couldn’t change
Though you’ve tried
These hours of confusion they will soon expire
Like everything
Does

There's never gonna be a moment of truth for you
While the world is watching
All you need is the thing you’ve forgotten
And that's to learn to live with what you are

Sometimes
Everything you’ve ever wanted
Floats above
He’s sticking out his tongue and laughing
While everything
Anyone can ever need
Is down below
Waiting for you
To know this
There's never gonna be a moment of truth for you
While the world is watching
All you need is the thing you’ve forgotten
And that's to learn to live with what you are

You got to learn to live with what you
You got to learn to live with what you
Are "
-Ben Folds (for the other person)

that is all.
Catch You on the Flipside,
Cliff

phew

2004-06-01T21:15:36Z

wow. im busy. im sitting in the library right now, which is a place that until last week, i rarely came, but i have been here 5 times in the last 7 days. i dont want to sound like i hate the library. i dont, i just never have any reason to come here. but with group projects its just a great place to meet. but back to the business, or busy-ness, they are both appropriate.

i have been working nonstop for the last couple weeks. that is a statement that given the couple weeks of skipping class will probobly draw a bunch of ridicule in my direction from some people, but it is a completely true statement. i have been on a total overload of stuff to do. within the last few weeks, i have had 2 stats projects, T-shirts to make for the SMO presidency, a speech to write (with much help from linny) for the presidency, exec meetings, tons of section 8 stuff in preparation for the invitational, and more stuff to do for the SMO banquet. then i had the invitational on saturday, and Friday and Sunday i spent with linny. i needed that chill time with her. yesterday, i worked on the slideshow with velvet and snowden for 6 hours. we got a shit-ton finished.

we have over 25 minutes ready to go, and still alot more to do, but i am way proud of the way it is going. a big pat on the back to everyone who has been working hard on it for the past few weeks to make it as sweet as possible.

there will probobly be more posting later, but now, i have a meeting to attend to.

Peace out folks
Cliff

EDIT: Also, i think it should be added, that i forgot to add a few things to my work list over the last few weeks. such projects are, Documentary Critique for film, Documentary Proposal rough draft, lots of japanese, such as composition and dialogue, etc etc. much more then the SMO stuff.

the thingy....

2004-04-15T21:30:52Z

I refuse to be the last to do this, so in an act of defiance, i shall type it right now.

1. WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR KITCHEN PLATES? i live in a dorm, i have no kitchen...the ones in the dining hall are all white, the ones at home are white with golden border.
2. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING RIGHT NOW? 3 of em. im rereading "Have a Nice Day" by Mick Foley, and im reading "Live from New York", im also reading "A Boy's Life"
3. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? well, i have one, but i dont use it. if you say my desk is my mouse pad, then i have more shit then i can list on my mouse pad.
4.FAVORITE MAGAZINES? Electronic Gaming Monthly, Official Playstation Magazine, GamePro, PC World, PC Magazine, etc
5. LEAST FAVORITE SMELL? Cookies and Ass....no...thats not it...um....brussle sprouts
6. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN MORNING? does anyone think in the morning? i just go on autopilot
7. FAVORITE COLOR? Blue
8. LEAST FAVORITE COLOR? as much as im around poo, brown
9. HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE? phone...im bad at answering at all
10. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME? Ben and Jane... :)
11. WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE? Friends, of all kinds, and the happiness they bring
12. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? vanilla
13. DO YOU DRIVE FAST? not since the accident...at least, not nearly as fast as i used to.
14. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? like 10 of em... BENJI
15. R STORMS COOL OR SCARY? storms rock, athens rain is for sucks
16. WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? Chrystler Town and Country 1999... i loved that van
17. IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE? Ben Folds, hes amazing... if not him...then Kevin Smith.
18. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? Alcohol and i dont get along well. if i had to choose... prolly a drink in which there is not even the slightest hint of a taste of alcohol
19. WHAT IS YOUR SIGN & YOUR BIRTHDAY? Capricorn, Dec. 30 1983
20. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? id rather not eat broccoli at all
21. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY JOB WHAT WOULD IT BE? Something in Video Editing... i think putting together the Final Product for DVDs would be cool.
22. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY COLOR HAIR? clear... that would really mess with people... they would be all like "HAHA YOU'RE BALD!!!" and i'd be all like "haha got you, i just have clear hair!", and then they could feel my hair and be all like "WHOA!!!!".......ya... clear...
23. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE? rightnow and in a Hardcore way
24. FAVORITE MOVIE? currently Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind is pretty high on the list...but of all time....um...who knows.. i like tons of em.
25. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS? ya, but i use the left ones too, i find i can hit more letters that way.
26. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED? Me
27. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 7
28. FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? Pro Wrestling baby
29. WHAT IS YOUR SINGLE BIGGEST FEAR? i dunno really... im not afraid of much. i guess if i were falling from really high that would suck
30. SAY ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS. well... since its sent pretty much from all too all...Kinsey could draw circles around me any day of the week, and her taste in country is actually decent, if i had to listen to any at all. Abby, can always be counted on to tell it like it is. Wendy, has a work ethic like ive never seen. Linny... well, shes my Linny... she's the best.
31. PERSON YOU SENT THIS TO WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? well... i bet Daryl responds before jason does, besides, im not sure if J has learned how to read yet.
32. PERSON YOU SENT THIS TO WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? refer to above
33. FAVORITE CD? "Rockin the Suburbs" by Ben Folds, "The Reason" Hoobastank, "Songs About Jane" Maroon 5
34. FAVORITE TV SHOWS? Smallville, WWE Monday Night Raw, WWE Smackdown, Dawson's Creek, thats pretty much it
37. FAVORITE SOFT DRINK? Diet Pepsi, IBC Diet Rootbeer, and recently Jones Cream Soda
38. THE BEST PLACES YOU HAVE EVER BEEN? Cruises are fun, but home is where the heart is, and my home is Solon, or Mason, but home is truly wherever my Linny is.
39. WHAT SCREEN SAVER IS ON YOUR COMPUTER RIGHT NOW? Picture slideshow of all kinds of shit.
40. FAVORITE FLOWER OR PLANT? um... the CookieCakePie plant?

hmmm...

2004-03-09T05:28:58Z

so the last time i wrote, other then the William Hong thing, i was talking about our group and stuff. that was like 2 weeks ago, so here i am back for an update.

life has been good. ever since the weekend after i wrote my post things have been as close to perfect with our group of friends as they have ever been, and that makes me quite happy. everyone is getting along very nicely, and all problems seem to have been resolved, which i also like.

im no longer sick, which is a good thing. Linny, however, has come down with whatever it was i had (big surprise, i know!) and is now slowly moving her way out of said flu. im glad she is starting to get better, but she is definately more congested then i was, and it has been very difficult for her to accomplish sleeping and breathing at the same time, so hopefully she manages to get that figured out tonight.

this weekend was SMO Years Eve and SMO New Year!!!! the winter concert was on saturday, and eveyone kicked some major ass. Section 8 also had a set that everyone seemed to enjoy.

in other SMO news, im possibly thinking of running for president, but if it came down to it, id gladly take VP or stay on webmaster if certain 5th year seniors have SMOlitical aspirations. either way i think bernie should stick to pub manager. hes too good at it to leave the position.

in other cool things that have happened recently, Linny and Abby had their Women's chorale concert. It was awesome. they are much more choral then SMO. we aim to power the audience into loving us. Chorale uses alot more finesse. something tells me that we are going to start attempting to mimick eachother in various ways over the next couple years.

anyhow. i have more to write, but its gonna have to wait until tomorrow night. have a good evening my friends. see ya tomorow

Cliff

Special Thanks

2004-03-02T02:09:07Z

Thank you William Hung, for bringing brightness into my life tonight with your american idol performance. she bangs indeed. she bangs for william hung.

Cliff

Some Stuff

2004-02-27T09:00:29Z

*****DISCLAIMER*****

Keep the following in mind before and during the reading of this post.

1. The statements made therin are not intended to offend, are not attacks on people, and therefore should not be viewed as such
2. This post is a statement of concerns and observations, made entirely by myself, without the aid of any outside source. any remarks about the contents of said post should be directed towards me and only me.
3. When reading this post, take the previous Kinsey/Lindsay post out of consideration. it had nothing to do with this one. therefore, any views in this post that may seem to stem from it are coincidential, and happen to be my views as well.

*****DISCLAIMER*****

That being said. i shall begin.

i have noticed some things about our group that i would like to chronicle and expose. there are many facets of this group of 7 that we all live in, and i am intrigued and perhaps confused to a point by some of them. the purpose of this post is simply a forum for me to vent these things i have noticed, and to wonder if anyone else has noticed them as well, and/or has an alternate viewpoint on them.

we are definately a diverse group of people. most friends tend to have a majority of things in common, but as a group, we really don't have this particular quality. we are an interestingly odd grouping of people. there are some driving points that hold us together. i shall list them here.

*****Cliff's List of Common Bonds*****

1. Couples.

All seven of us are bound in some way to this group through couples. of course there are the obvious right now. J and Kinsey, Daryl and Abby, Me and Linny. But When you really think about it, the entire basis of this group was formed on 2 person pairings that got intertwined. lets start, from my perspective at the very begining. Daryl and I chose to room together when we got here way back in high school. we became very very close over the course of last year, to the point where he is now my best male friend. daryl and i made it through that year, and got to COMT, where i noticed Linny sitting up front, and decided that daryl and i would sit there. So the me and linny couple as aquaintances started back before COMT. the Daryl and Linny friendship began at that point, and mine and hers also began to flourish at that time. so even at this point, we were a mesh of 3 groups, even though there were only 2 of us. fast foreward a bit. Daryls ongoing SOPBF friendship with J made us invite him (order him to leave IUP) to come join us sophomore year. and then J and I became friends as well. At this point 2 things happened. Abby was brought into the mix in 2 ways. the first of which being her friendship with daryl, the second, her friendship with me. in the end, this resulted in Daryl and Abby becoming the couple that they have remained as until this day. the second thing to happen at this point was daryl deciding (and me agreeing) that J and Linny could work as a couple, so the matchmaking begain, and the J and Linny relationship began to brew. they became friends over the internet, and met in person a couple times before the year let out. the year came to an end, appearing to be forging our way into sophomore year as the 4 of us. Me, Daryl, J, and Linny. of course that didnt happen as smoothly as it could have. i realized after "the tracy thing" that i liked Linny... alot... and wanted to be with her, and found out she wanted to be with me. that, after some events, ended the J and Linny couple, and began the me and Linny couple. J took a few emotional shots in the process, but my friendship with him came out stronger in the process, as did, at the time (in my view) his relationship with Linny as a friend. still at this point all seemed to be well in perkins 323. at this point in the story my knowledge comes solely from linny but heres what i know. Linny and Wendy knew eachother from last year's "hell dorm" of Lincoln, where they both had unfortunate roomate experiences which, in some way, led to a form of bond between them that led to them conversing alot over the summer, where their bond of friendship truly began to form. so at the begining of the year, when Linny knew she was gonna be hanging out with us boys most of the time, she invited wendy around to dinner a couple of times, and she soon became as much a part of the group as any of us. (if you didnt catch it, Linny and Wendy are another pairing). Back to cliff's personal knowledge, as this occured, daryl was going through the annoyance of a long distance relationship (so was abby) and so his natural tendancy to psychoanalyse led to a greater friendship with wendy, and they became another seperate little pairing. through this little triangle of three groups formed the friendship of wendy and Abby, which has obviously now grown to roomate level. also at this point of time, the female-seeking J met Kinsey, and after an interesting first week, things kicked off into a relationship, creating yet another pairing, and then becoming part of the group. so once Abby moved here and became friends with Linny, J, and Kinsey, our circle was pretty much complete, and all of us were here. now i know that this pairing theory is an interesting viewpoint to hold, but there is much more going on in our group then is noticable with a quick glance. there are easily more then 10 pairings of people listed off in the abridged history of our friendship there, while it could be very simple to just list of the 3 relationship couples and wendy. so anyhow, all this little crazy pairings form a very interesting dynamic in our group, that really has so many variables on the move at once, that of course it is gonna be reletively easy to find some form of tension. that will be spoken of later, however, and my point was, this is definately the major formative bond of our friendship.

2. Music

At least 6 of us sing, whether it be singing now, or sang in high school, or even sang together in high school, but regardless of that, we all like listening to music, in one way or another. it somehow, no matter how small, binds us.

3. Movies

It has become readily obvious to me that we all enjoy movies, from the various movie nights we have had.

4. Stubborness

Let's be honest here. we are have stubborn streaks. we all like our way, and like to see things done that way. there isnt one person in our group who doesnt, or the arguments we get into wouldnt be so long and unrelenting.

thats pretty much what ive got, and if you guys can come up with something else that we all have in common. a point i am trying to drive at is that we all have different personalities. some of us study alot, some of us dont. some of us love video games, some of us crochet. some of us argue loudly, some rationalize quietly, and some of us dont even voice concerns. all of these little differences can bring up big things, as we have all seen. now, i can leave the common bond issue and move on to my observations.

*****Cliff's Observations*****

this is the part where it may seem like an attack on people, but i swear it isnt. i guess what im looking for in response, if at all, is simple "hey i never thought of that" or "i disagree, but here's why" or even "i just dont see that, here is what i see compared to what you are seeing" type of responses.

here goes another Cliff List

1. The couple times, we have solved things within our group, and make forms of compromise, they are actively persued for only several days, not just by some, but all involved parties, leading to potential future conflict.

2. we have mentioned in the far-past, recent-past, and damn near present that we need to spend more time together. before defending this point there are (of course) rational reasons to be away such as Illness, Laundry, homework, dates, jobs, SMO, whatever, and that is of course, something that we all need to understand when wondering why some people are "never around". i know that it could easily be argued lately that me and Linny are, like last quarter, never around you guys. but, and i have proof of all things to follow, there have been perfectly good reasons. i was gone for an obligation all weekend, then i came back and got sick, so i stayed downstairs (where jess was also sick, so you guys wouldnt catch what i had as easily) to sleep, and wasnt at dinner, because i coudnt really keep food down. wednesday we werent at dinner, because on wednesdays we go out after my section 8 practice, which also allows the luxery of not having to rush through anything in the afternoon. i hope (and choose to assume) that you all know that this is in no way saying we dont want to be around, and in every way just wanting to get out a little bit more. i feel bad that ive been somewhat seperate from the group this week, and have missed you all as such, and therefore also am sad that i have plans this weekend as well and wont be catching up with the week i missed with you guys. anyhow, the reason i started this paragraph has now morphed, so the original observation two has become observation three.

3. the time we do spend together is very disjointed, and it is something that every one of us is guilty for. lets take, for example, tuesday nights. where 6 of us, sometimes all 7 watch american idol. instead of being grouped and watching the show (contrary to our lazy belief system, it is possible for us all to watch the main TV, we did it at the SuperBowl) we are all in seperate little groupings. its like clockwork. Me and Linny on the middle to end of the futon towards the door. sometimes wendy on the other end. abby and daryl (sometimes just abby) up in the bed watching on the other TV. J and Kinsey in J's chair or in j's bed. now while this would seem like a group spending time together to the casual observer, in truth it is very fragmented in my view. while the occasional joke is tossed from the Cliff/Linny section to the Daryl/Abby section, most of the time it is just 3 separate couples watching a show in the same room. i for one think it would be awesome to all gather round the main TV like we did at the superbowl, every tuesday and have our own little American Idol Judges panel. How fun would that be? we could all give our oppinions of each contestant and even place little bets. i just think its alot more "spending time as a group" then what we do now. lets just all talk to eachother more in the room, instead of pretending that the others arent even there.

4. we do all go to dinner and lunch, but thats really not enough. again i focus on something that we are all guilty of. several times over the past few weeks it has been suggested that we all play the question game, or get some other group activity going. other then last weeks card games, none of us, including the people who suggested these activities in the first place, like me, have tried to get the ball rolling on these activities. we all sit around too much. we should picnic more once weather permits it, and a game at ping, whether suggested by kinsey last week or lindsay a month ago or me today should actually be planned. any of these activities could and should be worked into our plans more often... i also think that we should go to eachothers activities. I.E. Linny and Abby have a Women's Chorale concert on tuesday night. of course i will be there, and i am going to bluntly assume that daryl will be there as well, but i think that everyone should go, and support our friends in their accomplishments. just as a hope you all attend the SMO concert on march 6th. and if daryl had something going on in J-con that was huge, i think we should all attend to support it, and if kinsey has an art show or somethin for her major we should go. its something thats almost always fun and without a doubt, always appreciated by the participant.

5. also in the vein of spending more time together, we really need to try and hit the lounges or other places then the room more often. i think its safe to say that when all 7 of us are in here, it starts to seem smaller and smaller as time goes on. this room definately wasnt made for 7, and while once we have the appartment it wont be an issue, for now, we really need to find some places where we can all have a little more breathing room and still be together.

6. there are little things that our group tends to ignore, whether it be on purpose or not, that should be immediately rectified. one of these things are basic social graces. im not talking about shit like saying excuse me when you burp/fart, god knows all of us guys and some of the girls make an event out of gassious emmisions, but we have gotten into the habit of taking eachother for granted. little things can go a long, LONG way as it pertains to a persons happiness. one of those things is a greeting. a simple greeting when one or two of us walks through the door is something that seems to have faded from our little grouping, at least in perk 323. ive been looking for it lately, so i know its there. people (or a person) will walk through the door and be ignored, not even as much as a hey whats up from some of the people in the room. its something that all of us have done sometimes, and maybe sometimes i just dont hear it, but there have even been times ive walked in and said hey guys, and no one has responded. its just slightly disconcerting, and its not something that happened last quarter, or last year. small talk is just that, small, but it really does show someone that you give a shit, even from a group like ours, and thats really, really cool.

7. something i would just like to bring up that is directly focused on myself and Linny is the topic of our arguments/fights. i know that sometimes, they can seem very, very out of the blue and stupid. they really arent. when we fight over nonsense, its just getting little stress with the world out, and its a normal thing to do. while sometimes it may seems like there is always an argument, there really isnt, as prooven by the fact that we always end up sleeping cuddled up together. so i just want everyone to know, that we love eachother very much, and while it may seem like there are stupid fights abounding, there really arent, and they are just steam blowoff arguments. so even if we get into them in front of you, its (most of the time) stress related. even the perfect couple has fights. and you gotta get the small stuff out of your system sometimes, ours just seem to happen in the open more often, and i ask that you just ignore us until it blows over in 15 minutes :).

8. this is the only time i will mention a person specific conflict. J, you and Linny have some kind of crazy dislike going on for eachother, or at least it seems to me that you have a general dislike from her as of late, as demonstrated by your increased coldness in her direction. i am well aware that she shoots cold comments in your direction as well, but, and i say this because its the way i see it from my viewpoint, to me it seems like you started it, and regardless of whether im right or wrong, id like the conflict to stop. and that is a plea that i am sending to both of you. i dont see any reason for you not to be friends, and regardless of who pissed off who first, its time to put it back behind you, and be friends. you used to get along great, so there is no reason that you cant do that again. i just know for a fact that this is where some of the group tension is coming from, and i want it to stop. if there is an unknown factor in this that i missed, maybe it has something to do with me, and i just dont see it, id truly like to know what it is, but regardless of the reason, it should stop. its gone past the point of reason now, and both of you from my viewpoint are just looking for the other to do something to jump on. so thats my plea for it to end.

9. daryl. i told you last week that our great discussions will return. i meant it, and i have been sidetracked by illness, but after the weekend, ill be around, and we can resume where the old days left off. cramming junk food and talking bout shit. now i know that night is when you get most philosophical, and i do too, but we used to have some of these talks during the day too, and i see no reason why we cant also do that. if the problem is having the girls around, and you dont wanna talk with them here, well work it out, but of course it has to be even. the girls are here night and day, and while sometimes yours sleeps in her room, you know the way i sleep, or more correctly, dont sleep, and linny is really like a sleeping pill to me, and without her there, i cant fall asleep at night. i know that you are sympathetic to this. you saw how nuts it drove me last year. But you know that im always here, and i am more then happy to chill til all hours of the night with you on the futon talking bout the stuff that goes on, or is coming up, or has happened. im always here for ya buddy, that goes for any of you really. we are all friends and if anyone needs to talk, im always set to listen, and if its our Cliff and Daryl talks, J is one of the brothers too, and is more then welcome. all stay up all night long talking with all 6 of you, in fact, its something i think would be good for us.

*****Closing*****

well. now that ive written my little novel, im gonna hit the sack, but these are really all things that i think you should all think about. if 9 things occured to me, i would immagine at least a variation of 1 of them would have occured to each of you. if we are all to become better friends, we really need to get our act together. every group takes a little bit of effort. and i know you all know that, but these are just some of the things ive spotted. im more then happy to read any responses, but before you write them, please read the disclaimer again and remember, i didnt write angrilly here, so it isnt necessary in response... id like to keep this as serious as possible, because its important to me. im just trying to see if anyone else is one my wavelength. anyhow, its 4 am now, and im pooped after writing for 2 straight hours. so, i hope you all learned something about my view here... id love to hear all of yours. because stuff like this is stuff we dont really know.

goodnight my friends,
I love you all,
Cliff

Sick as a dog

2004-02-24T03:20:18Z

Why is that a saying... does anyone actually know what that means? why is sick as a dog sicker then anything else. its the same thing as sleeping like a baby... have you ever seen a baby sleep...? they toss and turn and flop over on their faces and flail their arms... fucked up babies. anyhow. im really sick. i feel like shit. so im goin to bed at 10:30. wow. goodnight all

Cliff

crazy weekend

2004-02-23T15:58:26Z

i just got back yesterday from Section 8's retreat to the lake, and wow was it fun. we got some recording done, though none of the variety that we could release on a CD, just stuff that we listened to for the purpose of fixing problems we heard. i took damn near three hours of footage on my video camera, which should be good for the mockumentary I'm going to attempt to make. should the mockumentary not work out, the footage will do just fine for a video to wrap up the year like i did last year. we also had alot of random fun at the lake. we got in a few good risk games, though i got decimated pretty early on, which is evidence of the fact that i havn't played a really good risk game in years. we also took some journeys out onto the frozen solid, 3 foot deep lake, and walked all the way across it to the island in the middle. where we proceeded to make an expedition into the woods. if you've ever been in the woods at night, you can imagine what it was like. that was pretty much what happened when i was at the lake.

other then the lake, i didn't have the best weekend. i got a phone call on Friday from my brother. the reason for this phone call was to inform me that our house on lake Chautauqua has sustained very heavy interior damage from water. the structure of the house is fine, but there is a huge mold problem, and half of the ceiling came down. all the carpet needs to be replaced, and some of the paintings that we had there need to either be thrown away, or salvaged and reframed. most of the furniture survived the water assault, but it all has to be re-upholstered. so my mom and dad get the joy of redesigning the house, since pretty much everything that was there needs to be fixed or replaced. luckily we had all kinds of insurance on it, but im just sad because ive been visiting that house the way it is for the last 12 years, and its depressing to know that the next time i go to my family's house in Chautauqua, it wont be the one i grew up going to. not much i can do about that, but it still bothers me. this whole thing also sucks because the whole gang here was gonna take a journey back up the the lake house sans parental permission to chill for a weekend, but those plans have now obviously been postponed. im just glad we didnt try to go up a couple weeks ago, becasue a six hour drive to a house thats unable to be lived in would suck...especially the part where wed have to turn around when we got there, and go back to athens.

aside from all that, im balls ass tired and getting sick, if not fully sick already. i feel like shit, and i didnt sleep because of it. you know that feeling that wracks your entire body when you get sick, where you are woozy and disoriented and fuzzy, in addition to all the heavy symptoms... well thats what ive got going on. and since im rarely ill, it seems to be worse then it would be if illness were something i was used to. damn you flu-bug. it could have come from anywhere. daryl, wendy, and abby were all sick last week. Linny had a crazy cold last week, and even apparently had the same symptoms i am having within the past few days. hopefully that means it will pass quicky,

todays schedule is looking good and bad at the same time. i have japanese at 11 and SMO at 12, and while a wouldnt go normally, i have a quiz in jap today, and ive been sitting out in SMO lately, and im not dying, so i might as well be there. after that is when things get a little more hectic. i get to start with SMO lunch, which is always nice, and a small nap after that, but from that point foreward? i have a film paper due tomorow, which i have only done research for (research = watching "The Usual Suspects") so i need to write that. i also need to have my mostly final draft of the RLC video on Tanya and Dawn's desks by tomorow, so i need to finish that, and i also need to start/practice a Japanese Dialogue with Jason, also due tomorow. busy, busy, busy.

but linny is helping take care of my illness. she had to wake up extra early today, so she went to walmart and got me some dayquil and nyquil, so hopefully ill be drugged into oblivion enough to ignore my illness for most of the day... maybe some caffine will help too. other then that... there is my day as it stands at almost 11am. guess i should head off to Japanese with Daryl now. ill be checking back in tonight or tomorow.

-Cliff

For three!

2004-02-20T04:14:24Z

so i seem to have returned to the live journal world. here is an update on some stuff going on in my life.

this weekend is the section 8 retreat at Aaron's friend Luke's lake house near columbus. we are gonna do some semi-recording on severns equipment while we are there, to get a feel for how we are sounding. i cant wait to hear my arrangements of hey ya! by outkast, drive by incubus, and the scientist by coldplay in action. they will be fun. also on the itinerary, other then the gratuitous amounts of drinking (beer by the others, diet pepsi by me) and smoking of weed going on by a small group, we have the coolest game ever. this game was built by Aaron and Luke when they roomed together before Aaron was a grad student and Luke gradutated. this game is called "The Game". this title is a reference to the greatest board game of all time, "Risk". the game is a giant risk game, with a new world as the basis. this world's geography was designed by Aaron and Luke, and the coolest part... this godly game of risk is designed to play up to ten people, and the games are rumored to last easily more then a day... and the board (and the table attached to it...by glue) will be at the lake house for us to enjoy. add that to some video games, and this weekend is gonna be really fun. im sad i have to be without Linny though. sometimes 2 days can seem as hard as a thousand.

also on the itinerary is a big Section 8 show in Lancaster next week. we get an hour to strut our stuff. itll be good to expose ourselves (ewww) to a new audience.

anyhow, i get the room to myself, well, me and linny... so im off. peace out!

-Cliffy

WOW!!

2004-02-19T17:07:30Z

Well here it is, my second post in as many days. how weird is that. it certainly has been a long time since i posted in general, let alone two days in a row. i wonder why i was on so much of a hiatus from writing. probobly because ive been so busy. what have i been up to?

project 1: RLC video

or as i like to refer to it, the project of great crisis. i definately started on this video project for the residential learning communities last quarter, and got a bunch of filming done. i had interviews and class footage and everything, all on this nice little yellow Mini-DV cassete. wouldnt it figure that lost it over winterbreak at some point. amongst the panic of the search and the fear of getting fired, i managed to keep my job, and began filming again in january. well a month and a half of filming and 30 hours of editing later, im finally almost done with this project. i dont know why im letting it stress me out so much, but something about working on a video that will be shipped to over 1000 prospective students makes me nervous. i just feel like its not good enough. im no professional, and my bosses, Tanya and Dawn, are putting alot of pressure on my, and they have so much confidence in my work, so i just hope in the end it isnt less then they wanted.

Project 2: SMO Winter concert program

this is a bitch too. as the webmaster of the singing men of ohio i get the duty of designing the program for our winter concert. Wes left me a good template from last year, but that isnt the stressful part. its less then a week before we need to go to print, and i still dont have all of the ads. this is bad. though its not my duty to obtain them, it is my duty to put them in, so if i get them the day before we go to print, i have to scramble like crazy to input them. on the plus side, we already have more pages then last year, which means more ad revenue. we also got a bigger discount from kinkos, so we are actually gonna pull in some cash from the program this year, and im happy to be a part of that.

Project 3: SMO website.

ya... i finally finished the new one last week http://www.ohio.edu/smo and im pretty proud of it, but it took alot of work.

Project 4: Section 8 website

this is also my duty by default, and right now its a piece of shit. of course it is a cliff designed piece of shit, which is even more stressful, but ive just had no time to work on it. but Kyle commisioned Wills to work on it with me, and he is gonna take care of the new framework, and for the next few years, unless we get an amazing web designer, the two of us will update it together from this point forword

Project 5: New Section 8 Logo

this one is a pain in the ass. ok fine, so i designed the original, or at least its final interpretation, and i thought it was simple enough to read, but thats just me. so i did all the graphic work for the Section 8 cd, fine. but im really not a graphic designer. an artist i am not. and they think of me as some kind of computer wunderkind. im not that amazing at it, i just get lucky that things look good. i just fuck around until things work. but now i have to try to make a new one....grr

Project 6: Aaron Price's Wedding Vid

i know that this is something i need to get finished, or perhaps need to start it. i feel bad cuz this was 2 months ago. il have to start this... its in my head.

so there is more stressful stuff to do as well. but i have class, so ill write about that later... running late now... peace out!!!

Cliff

post?

2004-02-18T15:40:02Z

this started as a reply to daryls post, but i changed my mind when about halfway through i realized that i may as well just put it out here.

so here goes...

I see the silence just as much as you do. you arent alone. it bugs me too. you know im like you are... i want happy.:)

i dont know why there is so much illness. you and j have both been getting sick. ive been healthy, but have no idea why. if dryness is an issue, there are humidifiers for less than 20 bucks at the walmart.

you shouldnt only be sure of yourself around Abby. im very glad to have her here, because i know how miserable you were when she wasnt. but you shouldnt have to not be confident around us, especially me.

i as well think about the amount of time we have left here. i think almost nightly about what the hell is going to happen in the future. you know how much it bothers me. i want nosent to work too. both of us are nervous about our futures. we all are, but we all have to push through the next 2 years and just see where things go. and well be goin through it together.

ive said it before and ill say it again. you are like a brother to me daryl. if i had a brother my own age, i would want it to be you. i also miss the times we stayed up late just chatting. we will need to start that again. i learned more about myself then i ever thought i would have in those conversations.

making plans together sounds like a great idea. we just have to find a time when it works out. of course this comes at a time when im going to be gone next weekend, and linny and i are going to her place the weekend after that. but other then that i am fair game for any plans. i dont particularly enjoy that we end up all in seperate places all the time, but that is bound to happen sometimes. but, and especially with a group of 7 people, it is hard to make schedules mesh. i for one have tons of work on my plate for the next couple weeks, and have for most of the quarter, so my schedule fluctuates rapidly, and the different TV shows we all watch is a more minor thing that also puts us in different rooms. but i also think we should all spend more time together. friday when the five of us went to see the cooler was fun. i wish J and Kinsey could have been there with us. perhaps next time. maybe we should try to pick a night next week where we all go out to dinner. no where expensive... i know not all of us have a ton of cash right now, but maybe something like the china buffet, where everything is like 8 bucks. id be down for it any time. either way, i think all of us need to grow as friends. i miss the hanging out we all did together last quarter. i hope to see it come back.

one more thing. daryl, a week or two ago i told you that you werent being yourself. you seem to be back to your old self lately. it makes me happy. :)

til later
Cliff

p.s. maybe i should start posting again.

enderrahl @ 2003-11-05T01:05:00

2003-11-05T06:05:59Z

this is a post. haha

Cliff

i will post sometime. i love ya abby

enderrahl @ 2003-11-04T01:39:00

2003-11-04T06:39:24Z

post will come tomorow... i promise... right

Cliff

owww

2003-10-27T04:14:23Z

so i was gonna post very soon about how the last month has gone, and i will do so in the next few days, but at this point i feel that it is valid to talk about the situational owwie that i have endured on this fine sunday evening.

Linny and I got into a car accident. and it hurt... alot.

we were on our way home from mason, and were on rt 50, and some guy spun out around the corner, i braked and hit the side of his car with the front of lindsay's car. his car lifted, and his 2 front tired went over the guard rail until his car stopped. my hand is really gashed up, and my leg really hurts, but there is no severe damage to me. linny has a sprained ankle on her left leg, and a sprained knee on her right.

the other guy fucked up his right leg severely. he was really nice tho, and he apologized profusely. he need surgery and we will be in touch with him.

all in all.... it hurts alot. it was scary as all shit... and when the shock comes all the way down, ill try to write more about it. im just glad everyone involved was ok, and i want to thank all the people that helped us, especially the random drivers that stopped and specifically erin who took our stuff to school for us, even though we didnt know her. thanks to all of you.

and special special thanks to Daryl, Jason, Wendy, Jess, Velvet, Greg and Kyle, for coming to the hospital, and looking after us, and getting us gome, and getting our stuff.

ill write more later... but im tired. and its been a long day... i love everyone who is my friend and family, and i especially love my Linny... she was all i thought about as it happend. there is nothing like an accident to make you want to tell everyone you love them.... thank you all for being who you are

Cliff

Sorority Girls to Kill

2003-10-13T03:26:48Z

1.
Kelly
AKA: kbrowneyes319, Babbling Biotch, Sorority Skank,
Reason for Extermination: Fucking with Velvet, and Sullying the name of SMO

Prepare for Flamage

-Cliff

YAY

2003-09-17T05:17:36Z

life totally rocks, no time for real posting, but lets just say that im preoccupied. and i love every second of it, tho i do have to say it was sad that i had to lose a friend in the process. but to the special lindz that has been taking my mind off it...consistantly... thank you. i cant wait to see where the future is headed. so until next time, to all my friends, including the one i lost, sweet dreams and happy hunting:)

-Cliff

P.S. anyone who is feeling happy for my recent ability to stand up for myself, and would like to see another part of it can go to this link and read more Doreen's nasty meaness

let the games begin

2003-09-11T05:08:32Z

jason gave the okay today. lindsay and i are now dating.
i win
:)

-Cliff

wow...

2003-09-10T05:52:45Z

after much deliberation deep within, and 5 days back and school, i have come to a very secure realization. i love my life. i mean that. i really love it. thats a good thing.

i sat up in bed last night...wait, lemme jump back a little further. tracy and i talked on the phone yesterday. she got heavily on my case about my situation with lindsay prior to our breakup. it aggravated me. alot. that post with the argh!!! that was directly after that conversation. i had a headache, and popped some aleve, and proceeded to turn and talk to daryl,jason, and soon after, lindsay, about stuff. i played Burn, daryl and cliff song of angst, and chugged a diet pepsi, and then just kinda got back into my normal mood. what no one else realized it that, under the normal happy cliff that reappeared, i was deeply in thought. all the way thru dinner, and after dinner when me and lindz were chillin in her room with her roomate jess, and when i went with lindz to hear the song she wrote about me, and all thru raw (which linds watched!!!), and even after raw when i walked her downstairs to her room. i acted like normal cliff and for the most part i was, but there was intense deliberation going on. so last night, after i came back up, is when we recheck into the begining of this paragraph.

i lay in bed. awake. wide awake, thinking some more. i wanted to figure all my shit out now. i was tired of brooding. i figured much out. part 1, is as much as it bothers me, the party-girl side of tracy, which has always been there but never been prevelent, is now the part she is embracing the most. i figured out that seeing this happen (or hearing about it if you will) has made it much easier for me to move on, because the tracy that i fell in love with is not the tracy that is walking cases campus. i know now that we will be good friends, if we can let jealousy pass us.

the second thing i realized is that with every passing minute, i find another thing about lindsay that i like. shes into ben folds, she likes a capella, shes cute, and funny. im glad i realized what a great girl she was. not only is she an awesome friend, but will be a great girlfriend, and im excited to see where the future takes me.

the third thing i realized is that i have the best friends i could ever ask for. my roomates are the shit. after the events of the week, i know that daryl and jason would both bend over backward for me, and i would do the same for them. i cant immagine anyone other then them that id rather live with. the next few years are gonna be made better because i have them in my life. daryl is easily my best friend, and i hope (and have confidence that) jason and i will grow to be that close. if this week is any indication, i know that we will. thank you daryl and jason for being my support structure and having my back.

in other news, i started mixed martial arts club again today. i went with daryl, jason, and kim. we had alot of fun, and they welcomed me back with open arms and wonderful mockery. i love those guys. im sorry i dropped it last year.

i also got to interview a bunch of the new smo guys after they auditioned. a bunch of the exec guys were there to lighten the mood with simple questions and funnyness. it went over well.

section 8 auditions are monday. i feel silly saying it, but i hope that feener puts all the old guys back with no problems. i love that group so much, and to me, without section 8 i prolly wouldnt be here. i hope i am back in with no problems, cuz i have big plans, and if all goes well, we can record another cd next year.

the most amazing thing happened to me yesterday, and that was lindsay playing the song she wrote about me "finish line to love". it was actually about her views on how me and tracy ended things. it explained how lindz didnt understand how if you loved someone you could time them like that, and also talked about how she could never do that. it was the parts about how she felt for me, that really hit me. i was totally clueless. as i sat there and heard her singing, and watched her playing, i was nearly brought to tears. lindsay if you read this, and i know you might, i hope you realize the impact that song had on me when you sang it to me, and the smile it brought to my face. you are incredibly talented.

so thats mostly whats happening. i know beyond doubt that i want to date lindsay, and that i am ready for it. i told jason that i am waiting for his go ahead, and he has been so cool about this, and hes actually moving along really well, and i suspect that it wont be long before he tells me to go for her.

so to close, i have to say that the future cant come fast enough. a line from ben folds puts it to sleep, and drives it home.

"oh what fun
I can't wait 'til the future gets here " -Video (Ben Folds Five)

to all my friends, i love you, and thank you so much for always being what i need.

til later
-Cliffy

enderrahl @ 2003-09-08T17:41:00

2003-09-08T21:41:40Z

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

back at school

2003-09-08T20:21:38Z

and things are going quite well. in minor things, dark age of camelot is working, which is cool, cuz i didnt expect it to. our room is tight, and my reletively unstressful class schedule is well, unstressful.

i like lindz alot, and the situation with jason is going pretty well i guess. i feel bad for making him upset, but its not like i took his oppurtunity away, cuz lindz doesnt think of him that way. once i get my brain straigtened out, and are sure jason will be comfortably, lindz and i are set. its awesome.

the year is shaping up really well.

i dont really have alot of time to post right now, but i should sometime tonight or tomorow. ill update then

-Cliff

P.S.

2003-09-04T23:15:54Z

i slowly raise my middle finger to Daryl and Abby :)

shutdown

2003-09-04T23:15:11Z

i am now shutting off the computer until tomorow afternoon. bye

-Cliff

Memories....

2003-09-04T07:00:25Z

well, i guess its time to see where my first post has taken us. i guess i will do this by copying a segment, and then responding to it. this should be fun. i may as well repost the whole thing for the hell of it tho...

we travel back in time..... *******************************

My First Entry

Well holy Sh*t,

Who’d a thunk that I actually got myself into something where I get to write about myself everyday. I saw my good buddy Daryl workin on his and actually thought it would be interesting. Of course the fact that he may be the only person reading this for a long time may be kinda funny, considering we room together at college and he is sitting right behind me right now, and I could just turn and tell him... but what is the fun in that. It's kinda interesting to put your life out on a platter and feed it to anyone willing to listen, but hey, why not. So I introduce you to my life.

I'm currently in my first quarter at Ohio University. College is definitely a very interesting experience. It's kinda hard to find the type of people I'm used to here. I never realized until about a week ago how much time I actually spent in high school finding the group of people that I fit most with. I’m finding a lot of cool people in the Mixed Martial Arts club, and though I've never had a really heavy interest in martial arts (I took a little amount of Kenpo and Tai Kwon Do), I think it’ll be a lot of fun, cuz me and Daryl go together. My Music theory class has some cool people in it too. But it has only really been 2 weeks, so we shall see where any of that goes.

It has also been very interesting being without my "Girlfriend". I shall elaborate. We have been together for all of 4 months. A long time by some standards, but not enough for me. I really enjoyed the time we spent together and we decided that we weren’t going to be official once I left for school. For one, I had that looming over me all summer, which, while it wasn’t a bad thing, could be mentally frustrating at times. For two, I didn’t realize how much she, and the official title of boyfriend, meant to me until I got here. And that is just damn aggravating. I mean, who wants something that is going so well to stop, even with the almost guarantee it will someday continue. The aggravation is mind blowing. But alas, I just have to cope. We talk everyday, which is nice, and makes it easier to be without her, but makes the feeling of emptiness stronger. It’s worth it I think.

In other news, "World Wrestling Entertainment" and "Star Trek: The Next Generation" have taken on an entirely new meaning since I got here. Since day one, I have dragged Daryl into watching both, and I would go as far to say he now relatively enjoys wrestling, and has fallen in love with Star Trek. His sudden love of Trek is much to his Chagrin, as he formerly (and without valid reason) loathed Star Trek... boxed sets of TV shows rock. Tonight Me, Daryl, and Doreen (another friend of ours from home) met up with Timmy and Tom (great alliteration eh?) at Buffalo Wild Wings (here-after affectionately referred to as B-Dubbs) to watch WWE Unforgiven... while Daryl didn’t get to see his Rey Mysterio Match, I think it is safe to say his like of the sport has been cemented, and will soon become a heavy part of his TV time. Hehehe. If that is weird to him, I know how he feels, cuz its how I felt when my friend Dan first got me into it. Oh well for Daryl.

My other friendship connection here seems to be coming from the direction of my great love of vocal music, or singing to those of us who don’t want to say vocal music :). Since arriving at OU, my brain has been cheering itself on as I joined the Illustrious Singing Men of Ohio (SMO). After that I joined the A cappella group, Section 8. I’m extraordinarily excited for that one. Much like my buddy Daryl, who is also a member of SMO, I love a cappella music, and singing it is a great passion of mine. So, hopefully it will kick major ass!!!! But it can never compare to the World Renowned International A cappella Singing Sensation The Broken Bishops. Check my web page for that one.... we had a lot of fun. Anyhow that’s my thing. I love the singing. And if Daryl is reading this I’m not braggin, just explainin my thoughts. Hehe.

Anyhow, its like 1:40 now, and I have an 8am class, so I should probably go to bed. But knowing me.... I’ll transcribe more into this journal tomorrow. Live Journal... Welcome to my life.... hope you are prepared for the ride.

END NOSTALGIA....***************************************

now to begin the analysis

1. "College is definitely a very interesting experience. It's kinda hard to find the type of people I'm used to here. I never realized until about a week ago how much time I actually spent in high school finding the group of people that I fit most with."
-That is certainly true. it took me a damn long time to find my niche here. it started with section 8, and then moved on with SMO tour. i do still find myself missing many aspects of highschool tho.

2."I’m finding a lot of cool people in the Mixed Martial Arts club, and though I've never had a really heavy interest in martial arts (I took a little amount of Kenpo and Tai Kwon Do), I think it’ll be a lot of fun, cuz me and Daryl go together."
- this of course only happened fall quarter, and then i got lazy. i still dont have a huge interest in martial arts. i left daryl to go alone the last 2 quarters.

3."It has also been very interesting being without my "Girlfriend". I shall elaborate. We have been together for all of 4 months. A long time by some standards, but not enough for me. I really enjoyed the time we spent together and we decided that we weren’t going to be official once I left for school. For one, I had that looming over me all summer, which, while it wasn’t a bad thing, could be mentally frustrating at times. For two, I didn’t realize how much she, and the official title of boyfriend, meant to me until I got here. And that is just damn aggravating. I mean, who wants something that is going so well to stop, even with the almost guarantee it will someday continue. The aggravation is mind blowing. But alas, I just have to cope. We talk everyday, which is nice, and makes it easier to be without her, but makes the feeling of emptiness stronger. It’s worth it I think. "
- well, i think we all know how that went. all the coping ended with what is happening now. there was no almost guarentee of a future, now id say there is a guarentee of no future.i dont need to comment on this.

4."In other news, "World Wrestling Entertainment" and "Star Trek: The Next Generation" have taken on an entirely new meaning since I got here. Since day one, I have dragged Daryl into watching both, and I would go as far to say he now relatively enjoys wrestling, and has fallen in love with Star Trek. His sudden love of Trek is much to his Chagrin, as he formerly (and without valid reason) loathed Star Trek... "
- hahaha, he is gonna get another year full of both. me and him shall pull jason into wrestling, and me and jason will make daryl fall further in love with startrek. I r teH WiN

5."I joined the A cappella group, Section 8. I’m extraordinarily excited for that one. Much like my buddy Daryl, who is also a member of SMO, I love a cappella music, and singing it is a great passion of mine. So, hopefully it will kick major ass!!!! But it can never compare to the World Renowned International A cappella Singing Sensation The Broken Bishops."
-right... i am proud to say that Section 8 definately kicks the shit out of Bishops...vocally at least. i cant believe its only three weeks til our Kickass CD "We May Be Disturbed..." is to be released. YAY

6."Anyhow, its like 1:40 now, and I have an 8am class, so I should probably go to bed. But knowing me.... "
- yah... i never went to that class... ever. thats prolly why i got a bad grade in it...who knew.

7."Welcome to my life.... hope you are prepared for the ride."
- i definately have been tossed all around in the last year. its only gonna get more crazy from here... so, lets see where these things go. i may do some more analysis on my earlier posts within the next few days. we shall see

On that note.. that is the end of everything to be analysed. now i invite all of my friends to respond to me with their outlook/roasting of all of those situations. i will be posting the responses i get... so that should be a fun post. so i now invite my friends to begin ripping.

-Cliff

P.S.S.

2003-09-03T10:07:52Z

i think a good way to close out the summer would be to go back to my first post...almost a year ago. and respond to some of the stuff i have written in them.... this will be fun... as soon as i post my responses i want all my LJ friends to have an open season with their comments/roasting of these events. so prepare yourselves, because this will be one of tomorows posts.

-the Cliffish one

calm??

2003-09-03T10:04:46Z

maybe, im not entirely certain at this point. its been several hours since my last post, which was several hours since the bad event. i did talk to tracy in that time, and she feels like she doesnt know whats goin on, and shes been moody... im not entirely certain where to go with that. i myself have become a bit more calm, at least on the exterior. my brain is once again a jumble of confusion and inconsistancy. i dunno. lol.

*WARNING* Extensive reading from this point foreward....turn back if you dont have 10 mins *WARNING*

i cant ever recall a time where everything has been so inconsistant. im not sure where my head is. i find myself slacking off on my laziness to do things that a normal person would consider productive. ive been getting ready for school instead of playing games. last year at this time, i wouldnt leave my room to pack. i feel like my entire life has been shaken about and turned all askew... fuckin crazyness.

enough on my mental state of the union. lets see what else is happening in my life at the moment.

went to dinner with my grandma and my sister tonight. we got chinese. its prolly the last time I'll see Nanny (my grandma) before i leave for school, so im glad we went out. i miss my Nanny when im gone, although i know she will try to keep in touch by sending large boxes of cookies and candy instead of letters. i love my nanny :)

ive got some major packing preliminaries to finish tomorow. i cant believe its 5:30am. my sleep schedule is uber-crazy right now.i hope to be up at noon tomorow, so i can start the packing festivities. here is some stuff i have to do tomorow. in the order i hope to do it in.

step 1. ritualistic car cleansing... there is stuff (not a lot, but some) that has been in my car since i got home from last year. and some other stuff that accumulated over the summer. gotta get cleaned and vacumed for packing.

step 2. bring stuff from last year that will be returning downstairs from the guestroom where we have been storing.

step 3. attain blankets, sheets and towels from the random places around the house where they have been stored for the summer.

step 4. also known as, "the way i know im leaving". begin to disasemble TV, VCR, DVD Player, PS2, X-Box, Gamecube, Stereo, and Computer from my bedroom wire tangling factory, and bring to their safety boxes for travel.

hmm... and i suppose i should somehow manage toiletries and cloths in there somewhere too... i always forget the unimportant stuff.

i somehow need to manage to get my ass to my sisters curiculum night in my parents stead tomorow, because they are out of town. hmm... that will certainly be fun, its like "YAY!!! i get to go sit in front of all my old teachers and hear about the middle school" poop.

hmm Mariah Carie on this months maxim... damn! :P

I have come up with an incredible amount of projects for the coming school year. Nosferatu Entertainment is officially open for business, if you need anything, if you need, video production work, if you need audio work, webpages, stage hands, home entertainment setup or just basically anything that you think you need done, call us up. We are just starting to try to get out names out there right now, so we'll work cheap! Contact us at NosferatuEnt@hotmail.com and we'll set you up!

there is my cheap plug for me and Daryl and Jason. we just kick some booty like that. Im thinking that one of our first projects for the year will be to document the first month of school for our family and friends. it will kick mad anus :)

in other Cliff project news... i have come up with a sizable amount of ideas for arrangements for section 8. i will let you all in on the possibilities. any feedback on these ideas is appreciated. the order of the list holds no bearing on when they will be done

1. Broken Wings - Mr. Mister
2. A Complicated Song - Weird Al Spoof of Avril Lavigne
3. Remedy (I Won't Worry My Life Away) - Jason Mraz
4. Bring Me to Life - Evanescense (for something funny in the pie song?)
5. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles Theme (also for something funny in the pie song?)
6. Missing the War - Ben Folds Five
7. Hiro's Song - Ben Folds (this is my prime choice at the moment. this song was unreleased in the US...but it could be damn cool.)
8. Tempted By The Fruit of Another - old 80s tune

I also have some arrangements i am finishing up. with the help of daryl of course

1. Drive - Incubus
2. The Middle - Jimmy Eat World
3 Army - Ben Folds Five (i had this finished before i reformatted my computer...then i lost it, but i think i sent brendon a copy...i need that back man...)

there is quite alot of ben in that list, but his stuff is damn accessable to A Cappella. i cant wait for the year to start.

i talked to kyle today, and we decided that we are gonna have a lil 02-03 section 8 listening session to hear the CD next week sometime... i so cant wait, its gonna rock so hardcore. the unmixed tracks i have make me want to cream my pants, so i cant wait to hear it all mastered.

im lookin around my room right now, and im seeing all my laundry scattered around. guess ill have to do that tomorow too. this room is up for a major cleaning. ill ive been doing is typing LJ posts, packing, and Reading different Terminator offshoot books. they are damn good tho.

hmm... i suppose i should start to head off to bed. do i have anything else to write about. ... nope it doesnt look like it. i guess im off to fall asleep to a flurry of ben folds. i have come to the conclusion that he is the most talented songwriter of our generation. not something to start an argument on, just my oppinion. his lyrics mean somethin... i dont fine that very often.

good morning / night everyone.

"people tell me ben just make up junk and turn it in,
but i never was OK with turnin in a bunch of shit.
I dont like wastin time on music that wont make me proud,
but today i found a reason to sit right down and shit some out"
-One Down (Ben Folds)

-Cliff

P.S. WHERE THE FUCK IS EVERYONE ELSES POSTS.... HMMM??? you should know im putting you to shame right now Daryl, Velvet!!